Today, friends, I feel guilty. That kind of guilt only a Mommy can feel. The kind of guilt that pierces your heart and makes you feel like the worst.mother.in.the.world.
I feel guilty because I'm tired.
really stinkin' tired.
because I want to sleep in, just once.
I want to be relieved of bath time and bed time duty, just once.
I feel guilty because the Lord has blessed me.
Olivia is with me, and healthy, and happy.
she is sweet, and smart - so smart.
she can tell you what a pig and a cat and a monkey and a dog and a duck {clack clack} say.
she LOVES to read.
and yet these thoughts still linger.
and that kills me.
and that kills me.
I have to tell you ... I have a 13 month old, and I loved your post. I've had thoughts like this before too: just ONCE I'd like to be able to tell her to stop fussing and it would happen. That would be divine. Mine is completely HORRIBLE at teething ... gives her diarrhea and she vomits. We're getting molars right now. To say that I don't count the minutes to 1:30 (nap time) would be a lie and I feel so bad for saying that!!
ReplyDeleteCristy- I can sympathize completely! Feel free to email me if you ever need to vent, and please come back and visit here.
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