January 7, 2013

Less us..

My momma-heart is proud today.
Olivia is growing and learning so fast.

With every passing day she teaches me something new. Showing me daily, the precious and sweet things of life. Singing in the grocery store, witnessing to my brother-in-law, saying grace over our Christmas dinner.




Most days are precious and filled with hugs and tippy-toe turns. Tea parties with sweet, stuffed friends. Watching her take care of her babies, making sure each one is perfectly wrapped in their blanket.

Some days are tough; after all she is a toddler. And a head strong one at that. I couldn't begin to count the number of temper tantrums, or cries of frustration. (From her and me, let's be honest)

But I am uniquely blessed to be this child's mother. 
When I was pregnant I wondered what kind of child she would be.
I wondered how she would change our family...  How she would change me.
I prayed over my belly- that He would use her and that her spirit would shine brightly for Him.
 
As she has grown to be the person she is today, three things are abundantly clear.
1. I love her in an insane, unfathomable, indescribable way.
2. She is not mine. She is the daughter of a great Father, who loves her far better and far more than I ever could.
3. She is watching me, in every way.

I saw something once that said "our children become who we are, so strive to be the person you want them to be." That may not be the exact quote- but you get the point. I pray that when Olivia looks at my life 5, 10, 15 years from now she'll see a woman of dignity, of grace.
A woman who loved the Lord first, her husband second, and her daughter more than she could ever put into words.
I pray that the legacy I'm leaving will inspire her. That she would see the "why's" behind every decision. That she would respect the wife, mother, sister, daughter, and friend I am.
I live each day in prayer that He is molding me to be the best version of myself. For her.




This world is an ugly, broken place- and these babies we're pouring ourselves into; they all too soon will be watching it all unfold.
Friends I think if there's one thing we can all agree on it's that we want the best for them.
We want them to be happy, and healthy.
There are countless books written that will tell you how to be the best mother, the toughest mother, the fill-in-the-blank mother; and they're all filled with advise from well-meaning authors.
I've even read a few of them. Well, I read a few chapters anyway.

But I think the most important thing that we can do for these precious souls is to be who we were created to be.
To be honorable, and humble. Help little old ladies, and wash your hands.
Be true, and a great friend. Be more worried about who is sitting next to you than what you're wearing. Read the Word of God, and don't just see the words, but live it too.

Because, sweet friend, they see us, in every moment.
Let's make sure they see more Him and less us.

2 comments:

  1. so beautiful. your daughter is so adorable and love your prayer for her to see dignity and grace in you. as a momma of a daughter myself, i try my hardest even though i slip up at times, to show her what a woman that fears the Lord should live by. by your words, i'm sure you are doing a beautiful job and she will grow up to be a woman of great spirit!

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  2. She is so very precious! How blessed you are :)

    xo Shane

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